I sort of started this blog in a hasty manner and didn't really introduce myself properly so I wanted to take some time out of my busy ranting schedule to do that.

I am one of those people who has ALWAYS known I didn't want kids. I told my mom when I was 10 that I "didn't want babies ever, and wanted my tubes tied".

What can I say, I was a sophisticated kid.

As a child, I didn't even LIKE other kids. Sure I had friends but for the most part I found kids gross and immature. I remember feeling that way a lot.

One of the myths about CF people is that they had horrible parents and horrible childhoods.

For me, this couldn't be further from the truth. At almost 27 years old, I am exceptionally close with my parents. I feel like I grew up with them. My Mom is 44 and my Dad is 46...they're young and FUN. I talk to my mother every single day without fail. We have the best conversations, we make each other laugh, and we have enormous respect for one another.

I've also been a Daddy's girl since infancy and still am to a degree. My childhood was great, my parents are great. I am so sick of hearing people's assertions that people who don't want kids were somehow damaged as children and didn't have healthy relationships with their parents.

This is bullshit and not true.

The best thing about my parents is that they are totally cool with my CF status. My mom has said ONE TIME in the past 6 years that she hopes to see me change my mind about kids...and that was FOREVER ago. She now accepts and respects this choice and I think she even admires it. She really really likes who I am and is proud of my decisions. Words can't express how great that feels.

Now, as far as the other misconceptions about being CF, there's another one that pisses me off BIG TIME. I HATE the notion that one can't be a complete, fulfilled woman without having children. That really grinds my gears. Why do people think childbearing somehow contributes to femininity? It does not.

More about me...I'm driven career wise. Been with the same company for 5 years, have been promoted 3 times there and I am admittedly a very ambitious person. My independence is very important to me. I hate the idea of depending on anyone to support me in any financial capacity. I cannot relate to SAHM's and the way they relinquish all control over their lives to their spouse. I think it's incredibly irresponsible and honestly I don't have a lot of respect for these women.

I could NEVER live that life.

I am dating an awesome guy right now but I don't know if it will lead to marriage. I am sketchy about marriage. I know what my ideal marriage consists of but honestly, as a Black woman I have to be frank and say that most of the Black men I know are obsessed with having kids.

Their ego is tied to how powerful their sperm are. Now I’m not saying ALL of them are this way, but the majority are. They want kids. They want their oh-so-special genes to become personified in another human being. Fatherhood validates their masculinity, their manhood, and their sense of accomplishment.

That’s just how it is.

And I don't know that I'll ever connect with a Black man who is okay with not having kids so I may very well be single forever and I am totally cool with that. What I want from marriage is companionship, TONS OF SEX (I love sex), an abundance of alone time with my husband, excessive vacationing, significant disposable income to invest in a gorgeous home or two, and a comfortable, secure life. I want him to be my first priority and I to be his. Children fuck that up and I hate the idea of marriage when kids are involved. It's like putting ketchup on prime rib if you ask me.

And personally I am not willing to settle for just "any" marriage. I want what I want and if I can't get it, I'll stay single and keep a boyfriend or two (for sexual entertainment).

Anyway, other than that I live in Phoenix and I am a typical high maintenance woman. High heels, make up, manicures, pedicures, bathroom full of facial masks, body wash and sugar scrub. I am very feminine and into being a woman and I suspect had I been born a man, I'd be a major drag queen.

And a tranny too.

I love reading, singing, cooking, writing, watching NBA games, and I am a hardcore animal lover. I've been an ASPCA member for six years and I have rescued several animals over the years. That makes me feel amazing. I have two cats at home, and truly I find all animals to be a complete joy. I am very connected to them. Always have been.

Anyhow that's me...flaws and all!